Judgment..!!

either me wrong or not.

chronological my case since arrive at UK

Sept 2011

i was arrive at this country

meet my senior and ask about the part time jobs

i got the job

but my friend ask me to share it..

that okay..

buy the car 400pound

include 3month insurance ( 100pound/month)

tom-tom (50 pound)

my friend say

i have been duped

but he still want share the job with me

Oct 2011

almost every second at work

i was have been "dihujani caci maki because the condition of the car

but i was able so stand

deep in my heart say

"aku xajak pown ko join aku"

"ko yang sebuk2 nk join"

Nov 2011

he want me to repair the car

because he is not comfortable with the car conditon

deep in my heart says again

" why need to repair"

"this car dh retak menanti belah da"

just wait the MOT of car abes jek

sabar la

i don have much money like u

but he still want fix the car

so..

repair la ( 280pound)

Dec 2011

condition of car seriously more worst

finally something happen with our car

but 1 week before the accident

my friend just buy BMW

so he agree with "hati kecilku" before this

even time tu hati kecil ku dh ckp lame psal tu

tp bru sekarang dye sedar..

during accident

he told me

"rugi jek kter repair aritu"

hati kecil ku say

"kan aku dh ckp"

"ko xnk dgr"

"sekarg aku dh guna 280pound duit simpanan aku"

after 3days of accident

again he force me to share with him

buy honda civic 1.6

i reject the idea

i think it something stupid

1.6 car for delivery..!!

but once again..

on the basis of highest order of trust to my friend

i'm ignore what my heart say

i think he decision may be right 4 this time

buy honda civic 1.6 (480pound)

not longer enough burden 4 me

he said he want legal insurance to cover my car.

i agree for that

i was find the legal insurance for my car

it need to pay 80pound/ month

i din't know what he doing

finally he told me

that he already select the insurance

but the payment is 130pound/month

once again i agree with him

i never once refuse the stupid idea from him

in this month

i was helped 2 other friend to replace my work

as along i know i already have enough money

and i know they more needed the money that time.

Jan 2012

for this month

i realize that i need consider

what important as a MUSLIM

so, every time msuk waktu solat

i ask my friend to drop me at other friend house

walaupown i terpaksa menahan bisikan2 jahat

antaranya

"ko cepat sikit smayg ade delivery"

"cepat la aku tggu bawah nnti bos marah"

"klow ko smayg tepi jalan xleh ke"

sgt sakit hati bile dgr.

tp i need to face this situation

until the end of the month

i had to express what i want.

i told him.

i xmo pegi keje dari pagi

sbb susah utk solat..

so lepas magrib i will work as usual

i xkesah sgt dye nk bg bpe

walaupown he just give me 10pound

i accept it

may be tu je rezeki aku

sbb selama ni i keje the whole day

i will get 40-50pound/day

he agree with me

but

1week after

he told me

"ko xpayah dtg la

sejuk kt sini

lagipown delivery xbyk"

WTFS!!! you say

i very disappointed

selama ni xsejukkah..??

selama ni xslowkah delivery.??

i don't know what he think..

ALLAH saje yg tahu

ape yang aku dapat rase n nampak..

after he tak bagi aku keje

he terus beli iphone 4s

beli baju,games beli itu ini

aku xjeles ngan kemewahan ko

tp aku xsangka ko just amik kesempatan kt aku

langsong xnk aku lebih dari ko

ko paksa aku ikut cara ko yang btol2 bebankan aku

last2 aku ko pijak..

ko tutup peluang keje aku

tp ingat la KHALID

rezeki ALLAH bg..

bkn ko..

insyaALLAH

ALLAH maha ADIL

before that he told me

he dh tukarkan insurans kete

kepada yang illegal dan lebih murah

my heart say

"kenapa sblom ni ko xnk tukar

ko bebankan aku ngan insurance yg mahal

tp bila ko x bg aku keje

ko pandai2 tukar"

aku still go to work with him

sepanjang dalam kete

xde stu patah perkataan pown keluar

senyap sunyi sepi

Feb 2012

over 2 weeks

i just working for 3day/week

and he working 5day/week

i still kene byr insurans 1/4

wlaupown duit yang aku dapat dari keje just 1/6

aku xkesah..

satu malam..

we were arrested by 2 policemen

after 30min investigation

polis tu say

"your car not covered by any insurance

so,i must take ur car first

after u get ur insurance policy

ur can take ur car back

back must pay 150pound within 24hours

after that it will be charge 50pound/days"

yesterday the insurance call and say

"i'm sorry.we can't cover ur car

and withdraw the policy"

so that mean

i must use our own money to get the car back

until today

my friend never talk to me

i don't know why

he never enter the room as long as i do not sleep

so for this reason i just want to know

who are wrong..!!!

jnji ko yang nk kongsi senang same2

jnji ko yang ape cara pown msti aku bleh keje ngan ko

jnji ko yg ko akn adil dlm bhgian keje

mana plak keadilan yang ko bg kt aku

sedangkan ko bermewah ngan hasil yg sepatutnya milik aku

"seorang muslim itu dipegang pada janjinya

dan pada akhirnya segala undang2 mesti berteraskan keadilan"

"the supreme, ultimate, overwriting, and the purpose of the law, including syariah

is justice"

Time is running Out

ni bkn nk promote lagu muse ek...

but it about my preperation for future..

my class abes end of March..

mid-term break April..

Final exam on May

fyp on early June..

cepat btol rase...

aku dh pass 6 bulan da...

will be update soon...

ade org kcow...

huhuh

Alhamdulillah..Redha...

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah..ni dh msuk mggu kedua..

aku di "island"kan..

sgguhnya ini dugaan ALLAH bg kt aku..

aku sedia utk semua ini sebagai balasan dosa2 sblom ini..

rase kesunyian ..

kawan2 gelak tawa makin mnjauhkan diri.

ntah ape dosa aku kt dyeorg..

aku pown xpasti..

hanya kerana aku memilih yg terpenting dr kepentingan lain..

insyaALLAH...aku bleh bertahan..

utk bpe bulan jek ag..

ya ALLAH..

aku hanya berserah padamu

dan

Redha akan ketentuanmu

pg td aku terdengar sore org mengaji kt telinga aku..

aku xtaw itu mimpi ke btol2

tp btol2 mnyentuh hati..

ya ALLAH bukakan lah hati hambamu ini..

AMIN..!!

Senyum :)

kene senyum kan..

kawan2 kejap ade kejap xde..

family ade sokmo..

"dye" always be my side

Hujan=sentiasa ada

saje je nk tenangkan diri..

sbb dh rase kesunyian dsebabkan

kenipisan diri..

dikala ketebalan diri..

kawan akan dtg menebalkan muka

da la tu melalut...tata

update

since last month

i have a lot challenging moment

i need to make some difficult decision

whether senang n susah..

alhamdulillah.

i was make a right decision.

i'm willing to face next challenging

insyaALLAH byak dugaan after kita memilih agama lebih dari dunia..

i have lost " brotherhood" already..

and

i'm ready if i lost enjoyment of life kt sini..

and

i want to apologies to my family and "her"

i'm not strong enough utk merantau atas beberapa sebab..

i'm very sorry cz can't meet your expectation..

at last..

tp mse on9 jupe lagu yg menarik..

to all people who take advantages on my weakness

malique+ jamal= aku maafkan kamu

Timbul tenggelam, timbul tenggelam
Acapkali terpendam, acapkali tersergam
Cermin muka kopak penuh bintik hitam silam
Ini bukan lagu rindu ini madah dendam
Kutimbang tanpa neraca di awal usia
Ku dihukum masuk neraka oleh manusia
Minta tunjuk lubang atau pintu tak dapat jawapan jitu
Jadi aku tak berganjak biarkan saja begitu
Maafkan mereka, mereka tidak tahu
Mereka tidak ramas buku, mereka segan ilmu
Mereka tidak fasih malah fasik guna kata
Kita kongsi nama bangsa tapi tidak kasta bahasa
Maafkan mereka, mereka tiada nilai
Ibu bapa lalai dari kecil dah diabai
Tanpa kasih sayang, mereka suka menyakiti
Kita kongsi warna mata tapi tidak warna hati

Jangan ahli sihir seru nama maharaja
Nanti segerombolan hantu bisu yang menjelma
Guna hak berfikir sebelum hak untuk bersuara
Kalau terpelajar sila guna hak miranda
Pura-pura dengar, telan tapi tidak hadam
Hafaz bila lafaz tapi mereka tidak faham
Mereka mula kiri, aku kanan bila baca
Sudah mahir rumi, mari tafsir alif ba ta

p/s: some lyric from that song..

very meaningful